I used to be a very patient person. Not so much anymore. I was selfless most of my life and I never worried about myself. I never did what was best for me.
I few years ago I started noticing my view points switching. I felt like it was my turn to be a little bit selfish, I didn’t want to wait anymore, it was my turn to do what I wanted.
I grew a backbone. I was finally able to tell people no. I became a stronger person, but with every strength comes a weakness. My patience was once my greatest strength and is now my biggest weakness.
I figured I’ve been so patient all my life, I deserved to want the things I want now.
But I deserve nothing...
God owes me nothing, the world owes me nothing, my family owes me nothing, my friends owes me nothing, and my job owes me nothing.
Most people in my generation whole heartedly believe they are entitled to everything. It’s not completely their fault that they believe that. It’s what society has taught us, it’s what teachers and parents have taught us.
But life doesn’t work that way, the most you feel deserving the more you loose. Entitlement is a test, some people take longer to pass the test than others. But we have all been given the test at some point in our life.
Let go of the thought process. No one owes you anything. You want something, work for it. You want something, earn it. Do your part.
I decided about a month ago that I wanted to go back to school. I gave up my opportunity after high school so that my parents could save more money for my younger sister to become a veterinarian. Now I have to be patient, and work hard for the education I want.
I’ve had plenty of rocks thrown in my path the last couple weeks, and I fully believe that I needed those rocks to knock me down to a more humble human. I needed that wake up call. I deserve nothing, so I’m thankful for everything I have and I’m working for the things I don’t.
With this lemon I will learn to make lemonade.
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