I used to be a very patient person. Not so much anymore. I was selfless most of my life and I never worried about myself. I never did what was best for me.  I few years ago I started noticing my view points switching. I felt like it was my turn to be a little bit selfish, I didn’t want to wait anymore, it was my turn to do what I wanted.  I grew a backbone. I was finally able to tell people no. I became a stronger person, but with every strength comes a weakness. My patience was once my greatest strength and is now my biggest weakness.  I figured I’ve been so patient all my life, I deserved to want the things I want now.  But I deserve nothing... God owes me nothing, the world owes me nothing, my family owes me nothing, my friends owes me nothing, and my job owes me nothing.  Most people in my generation whole heartedly believe they are entitled to everything. It’s not completely their fault that they believe that. It’s what society has taught us, it’s what teac...

I learned to trust my instincts and my intuition from a young age. Believe it or not my intuition has been 100% right in every life situation I’ve been in.  I can tell instantly when I’m not going to get along with someone. I can get a bad feeling about something or someone, and become on edge. Sometimes I don’t even know why I feel uncomfortable around someone until months or years later. And it’s always completely justified.  Learning to take your guts word is a very hard thing to master. Especially when you have other’s opinions to deal with as well. I had to go through a lot in my life that I could have avoided had I actually listened to MY intuition, MY instincts and not someone else’s.  How I learned was to observe animal behavior. Animals don’t hear opinions or listen to anyone other than their intuition. Everything is energy, they feel it, and they feed off it.  If you go up to a dog and you feel scared or nervous, that dog is going to pick that up and will f...

There’s a few moments in everyone’s life where you start to see the pieces of the puzzle that is your life, come together. Whether you believe in a God or the Universe, things always end up making some sort of sense.  You’ll have those absolutely gut wrenching moments of, “Why me?!” Then you’ll have those “Oh, that’s why” moments that help you see the bigger picture.  Sometimes you’ll have a series of “Why me?!” moments, just for one small “Oh, that’s why.” Whether it was to meet someone new or learn something new. Everything happens for a reason.  So if you are like me and are currently going through a “Why me?!” moment, I urge you to stay strong because one day it will all become clear. With this tart lemon and some sugar I’ll make some lemonade.

When life continuesly try’s to break you down. Fight back. I’ve had over 10 jobs just in the last 2 years. Each one less than about 6 months. Why so many? My hours will get cut back to the point where I can’t afford to even go into work. Or I’ll get harassed by Management.  How lovely.  Well I finally found a job that was perfect for me and I absolutely loved it. But of course nothing good stays for long. The business sold.  Then I was out of a job completely for almost 2 weeks.  I found something part time pretty quick. Pay isn’t very good, but you take what you can. And now I have what is referred to as a “side-hussel”. Now I’m a delivery driver for DoorDash inbetween my shifts at my part time job.  Sometimes you have to do whatever you have to do to get to where you want to be. Sometimes you have to make sacrifices for the greater you that you will one day be. Today is just temporary. Everything from today is just temporary. It will be a blip on the story of ...

Rest. It’s a powerful thing, and it can mean so many things that we actually take for granted.  It could mean sleep, but not like the sleep we are used to. Where we just lay in bed and close our eyes to pass the time. I’m talking about real sleep, the kind that makes you feel like you’re floating until you wake up and actually feel good about the day ahead. It could mean a break. A break from reality, a vacation from the day to day life that wears and tears on us all. So when we come back we are more relaxed and are able to accomplish things that we never thought of before. It could mean taking a breath. I think in these busy and overly stressful lives we live we forget to take in a deep breath. I think we forget to take a second and really enjoy our surroundings, breath in the fresh air and enjoy the moment. Sometimes life will hit you so hard that you need all 3 of these different types or rest at once.  Sometimes you’ll be able to take that rest and sometimes you’ll have to...

Lemons can be bittersweet and so can life lessons. Over the past 3 years I’ve gone through reliving my worst nightmares over and over again. Having to distance myself from my friends and family because I legally couldn’t talk about it. Having to sit in front of a judge and a jury, telling them everything I remember.  It was the worst experience I’ve ever had, to feel so vulnerable and powerless.  Yesterday it all ended so I can finally share with you my side of the story. From an outside perspective, this whole thing could be considered just family drama that got out of hand. Which is right. When I was 8 years old I started getting molested by my sister’s husband. It didn’t stop until I was almost 12 years old when I “became a women”. Honestly I was so confused, I thought that was what love was and that I was in love with him. And then when it stopped I thought I had done something wrong. I never liked it, it always made me feel gross, dirty and wrong. All I can say was I was ...

I was reading an email last night when I saw the saying,”Everyday is the dawn of a new error...” I laughed because it’s so true, but what it didn’t say is that errors create era’s.  Errors are understated. We are taught that they are bad. Sometimes we even get called names that weren’t given to us for these errors we make.  But... You have to make mistakes in order to learn from them.  It’s a fact of life.  You have to take risks in order to get results. It’s a fact of life. Don’t live life on the safe side.  Don’t be afraid to make mistakes.  Live. Learn. Make mistakes. Take risks. Turn lemons into lemonade.

If it was easy it wouldn’t be worth it.  Another saying drilled into my young mind. Another saying I didn’t comprehend until recently. I grew up a 4h kid. I raised pigs and goats. I named them. I loved them. I fed them. So they could feed me. That was a tough concept to grasp for a year or two, but then I grew as a person and it became a little easier. At least I know exactly what was put into my food and how the animal was treated during its life which is more than a lot of people can say. I was engaged. Things were great before we took that big step and started actually planning a wedding and a life together. Saying something and doing something are two very different things. Things got really hard, but my understanding was it would be worth it in the end. His wasn’t. So we parted ways. Things are still hard, they didn’t get easier after we broke up. I still believe that all of that will be worth it someday. If nothing else I learned something new about myself. I...

It was drilled into my mind growing up that life isn't fair. My go to argument was that it should be. Unfortunately saying that it should be wasn't good enough.   Life isn't fair, I never really got that concept until I hit 18 years old. I didn't have the easiest life before that but it wasn't as bad as it could have been. What really made me grasp the concept was my first sexual harassment in the workplace experience.  I was one of those girls who was sexually harassed from the time I was 7. I know, seems absolutely ridiculous. What was different about it happening when I was 18? Well that would have been the workplace aspect of it. I've had it happen at church, but at least I could threaten to tell my parents or my brothers would come to my rescue. It would happen with people that I grew up around, but then again at least to could tell my parents. What's different about the workplace is I had to learn to be my own rescuer. You learn to use a ...